We all use a dozen apps in a single day. Maybe more. Anytime we download one to our phone, it demands access to a pile of information, from contacts and camera to microphone and location.
I recently saw an author state that the reader would never see her characters engaging in unsafe practices, unsafe sex, or putting themselves into dangerous situations.
My first thought was…gosh, what boring books.
I’ve thought about her statement ever since, putting more words to my knee-jerk reaction.
Yes, you WILL see my characters putting themselves into dangerous situations. They’re going to make stupid decisions. Sometimes it’ll come out okay. Sometimes it WON’T.
They’re not always going to use the condom with strangers. They’re not going to use the plastic wrap dental dam for cunnilingus. They’re not always going to make sure everything is perfectly flushed out and squeaky clean before the penis that was in the anus goes back to the vagina.
They’re not going to negotiate what will and won’t happen and they won’t discuss what the safe word will be. They’re not going to sterilize every implement the second it comes out of the toy kit
Because I’m not your sex-ed teacher.
I’m an author of FICTION. The entire POINT of fiction is to be fantastic. That’s where the word FANTASY comes from. It’s supposed to be over the top and exciting, not a lesson in all things personal safety and safe sex.
My characters are going to be stupid and reckless in their lives because you can’t be stupid and reckless in yours. Books are for immersing one’s self into another world where the rules we live by don’t apply, and living vicariously through those characters.
That’s the ENTIRE POINT!
I have learned about a website that allows readers to follow authors and pay for the “privilege” of getting information and updates about new books.
I will not ever use this service.
I don’t think any reader should have to pay to know what page I’m on in the typed document. I don’t think any reader should have to pay to be updated on enticing little snippets.
In this day and age of technology and accessibility, it is exciting to me to be able to share these things with my readers.
I enjoy taking a picture of something sitting on a page of my handwritten manuscript or typed hard copy I’m using for edits. If this was 30 years ago, and my favorite authors were sharing in this same way, I’d be turning my computer every which way to try to read that blurred out, half-covered page.
I like asking if anyone would like to be a character and showing various versions of early covers for input.
In this day and age, author and reader have an unprecedented opportunity to take the journey of writing a book together. The author isn’t holed up alone at a desk anymore if they don’t want to be. Right here at our fingertips is the rest of the world and we can interact with it at any moment.
I’m not going to nickel and dime you to death along that journey. The only time I want your money is when that book is finished and available for sale.
Maybe I might miss out on a few bucks here and there, but it feels like extortion to me. “If you give me two bucks, I’ll tell you the name of the next character to die!”
I would not respect myself if I did that.
Over the last year and a half, I’ve been working through various lines of my family tree.
On two separate occasions, I’ve found someone who was on the Mayflower. One was the 17th signer.
The other was a couple with two children. The woman is a great-aunt. It’s unclear if the two children are actually hers or if she was the man’s second wife. Old records, you know. A single fire in a single church wipes out the records for every family in the region.
It has long been supposed that the first two cats that were to become the American Domestic Short Hair were aboard the Mayflower. Indeed, it makes sense that they would bring a cat or two at least to control the rats and mice on the ship.
So what does this mean?
It means that I may actually be related to the first American Cat Lady.
This is an open and honest discussion of a woman’s menstrual cycle. If you’re not prepared for what that will entail, don’t read this.
The purpose of this article isn’t to hound about the environment and convince you to buy one. I am not about to throw that stone. It’s not to discourage you from buying one either.
This is a candid description of my personal experience so that you are armed with practical information and a realistic–and accurate–depiction of pros and cons in action.
I want you to make a much more educated decision about whether or not silicone cups might work for you.
I had seen a couple different brands of menstrual cups and was curious about them. Sure, I read the websites, but those always play up saving the environment and downplay the practical realities. Any information on the practical realities is non-existent on product websites.
How well would it actually work? Was it really less messy? How easy is it –realistically speaking– to insert. Would it really help to decrease the volume of tampons and pads going to the landfill and through the sewer system? Would it be enough to make any real difference to the landfill or my pocketbook? Would the hassle of it be worth the amount of money and landfill space purportedly saved?
I realized these are questions that can only be answered by doing it myself and finding out, as each woman has to assess for herself if the bother of something is worth the end result.
I had previously posted quite the rant about the Soft Cup variety of menstrual cups, and what a complete disaster that was. With that experience fresh in my mind, even these years later because it was such a nightmare, I had some doubts about my ability to effectively use the silicone brands.
Then I saw a “blog/review article” that was actually a thinly veiled advertisement about “how oh so great and fantastic” a menstrual cup was. The article so seriously ticked me off that I posted a reply that I didn’t believe for a single second that the “author” had used one of these things. I actually questioned if the “author” was even female.
I decided to do a long-term, in-depth experiment myself so that I could write an accurate account of my personal experience. I’ve done the months. Now it’s time to write up and publish my findings.
There are two brands I’ve readily seen, Diva Cup and Mooncup. I’ve seen others now, but have not seen much variation in design. They are shaped about the same. They all have a pointy bit at the bottom, which you’re not supposed to grab to pull out so I wonder why it’s there in the first place.
Diva Cup is $40 at most pharmacies, making it rather an expensive initial expenditure. Mooncup I have seen at about $18 on their own website, making it more economical for the average woman. Until you add in shipping, that is, and do the conversion from pounds to dollars again. Then suddenly it’s around $27. That’s about what I paid for a Diva cup at Rite Aid, thanks to my 20% off rewards card and a $5 “load to card” coupon.
Others are as low as five to eleven dollars. Some come in pink, blue, or purple. So the technology is advanced enough that they’re making color options for the little cup that will catch your monthly flood of blood. Yes, we’ve reached the point where they’re trying to make it pretty for us. Oh joy.
“Hey, what color is your menstrual cup?”
“Blue. What’s yours?”
“I got pink. I feel so pretty on the inside!”
Down to Business
I conducted my testing over a period of several months. I used it on light days, heavy days, even “I might start while I’m out” days. I wanted to put it to the test through every likely scenario, and that could only be achieved through repeated cycles.
First of all, I knew the “never buy tampons/pads again” thing was not going to be realistic for me. I simply had to prove it by using one of these things. How did I know? Very simply. I have an exceptionally heavy flow.
“Holds three times more than a super plus tampon!” is one of the alleged pros. Sounds impressive, doesn’t it. We’re told over and over that the “average” woman only releases about two ounces of blood for her entire cycle, so there should never be much at all in the cup, right? I don’t know that I’ve ever met one of those average women. I’m certainly happy for them, to have such a barely there cycle. I, however, am a Niagra falls of menstruation once the dam breaks. I always have been.
“Holds three times more than a super plus tampon!” If they say so. But when I’m blowing through a super plus every 90 minutes, that means I’m going to have to take this thing out and put it back in every three hours to be sure I don’t overflow it. I did that for one cycle. By the end of the day, I was actually sore from repeated fisting of myself to get the thing up there. More on insertion later.
Let’s discuss the practicalities of a prolific flow first, as that is my personal biggest indicator of when I can and can’t use it.
Yes, you CAN overflow these things. I’ve done it more than once during my several months of testing.
This meant I had to be prepared to empty it at the mall, at restaurants, etc. Backup pad in the panties was a must just in case. As an author, I work from home; but you can extrapolate all of this to your job at the office, at the grocery store, wherever it is you are employed. Is there a private facility? Or does the restroom have more than one stall and a shared vanity that means someone may see you with this bloody thing in the sink while you’re rinsing/washing it?
Would you be wiser to take a second cup in a baggy, so you can put the first into the baggy and stash it in your purse until you get home? Is that really very practical, to have this bloody mess of a thing in your purse for several hours?
Diva Cup’s website suggests taking a bottle of water with you so you can rinse it at the toilet. Okay. Am I supposed to do this sitting on the toilet, with the water pouring out between my thighs while I’m straddling the toilet? Or am I supposed to stand up with no protection whatever and do this?
Have they really taken into consideration the muck factor? Have they ever tested this product on a woman who has free-falling river of a cycle?
Menstrual flow isn’t just blood. I have quite a bit of very slimy mucous that, oddly enough, is very sticky at the same time. Think Ghostbusters, in the library, with Venkman trying to get a sample of the ectoplasm for Egon. It stretches, it wraps around fingers, it drips like raw egg that never wants to let go of the shell. All this is hanging from the edge of the cup and I’m supposed to somehow get it to roll out into the toilet so I can then rinse the thing.
I’ve decided I need at least one more arm than I already possess in order to make all this work. Rinsing in the toilet with a bottle of water just is not going to happen for me. I’m not nearly that coordinated and there’s not nearly enough room. I need the sink. That means never taking the cup out in any public restroom.
“Or wipe it out with toilet paper” comes the next helpful suggestion. You mean that cheap toilet paper that shreds completely the instant it gets wet? I would need a baby wipe to feel even remotely comfortable just wiping. And then, I’m not sure I would want to put whatever chemicals are in that liquid substance the wipe is soaked with back up into me for my body to absorb from the inside.
I’m also not comfortable putting the residue of old blood back in me. To the sink I go, to clean it with hot water and soap. Every time. At home, the bloody mess is going to have to sit in the sink for a couple minutes while I take care of cleaning myself.
Doesn’t seem to matter how careful I am, it’s a mess. I have to pinch the bottom to get the thing out. If it’s half full, that means I’m squishing its contents into my vagina. I spend twice as long and use twice as much toilet paper to get all the blood and mucous cleaned away than if I’d used a tampon. Then I get to the cleaning of the cup to reinsert it. I also have to wash my hands again after reinsertion…because at least two of my fingers and my thumb have been up inside my vagina. Again.
This is not, by any means, a “cleaner” alternative. This is messy as hell and there’s no streamlining the process. It is what it is. Pulling a tampon out to drop directly into the toilet is far less messy.
I don’t care what carbon footprint my menstrual cycle causes. The heaviest part of my cycle is going to have to be tackled with tampons and pads. There’s just no getting around that for me.
Now let’s talk about insertion.
I’ve mentioned the two fingers and thumb, near-fisting of myself. There’s much more to it. Insertion is about technique and timing, not to mention finger length, arm reach, and your own flexibility.
I’m a big woman. I’m short, but round. My arms are short. My fingers are short. I already had doubts about whether or not I’d be able to get the thing in. The entire first week was my learning time, along with the entire next cycle. These “a couple times and I had it” claims are out the window with me. There is a definite learning curve, and you need to be prepared for it not to go smoothly every single time. Be prepared for this to take time to get the hang of.
First, folding the cup for insertion. I fold it over in half and pinch it together in the U shape. The Diva Cup is thick and stiff and doesn’t seem to want to go into any of the other configurations you can Google to see. The curved side going in first I slide the folds into my vagina.
The problems are 1. not pinching tight enough
2. letting go too soon.
The cup doesn’t want to be folded, remember. It doesn’t like to be folded over. It wants to be round, and will fight tooth and nail in order to be round. That first time, I lost count of how many attempts it took just to get the thing far enough into me that I could let go and push the rest of the way in.
Whenever it popped open before passing my pelvic bone, I had to take it out, re-fold it, and go at it again. I was seriously there for twenty minutes fighting with this thing, and went through it all over again eight hours later when I wanted to take it out to see how much was in it and put it back. It was quite frustrating.
I used a little bit of lubricating jelly at one point, because I was dry and rubbing myself raw. It helped immensely.
By the end of day 2, I was sore from repeated insertion attempts and didn’t want to use the thing anymore. I almost gave up, thinking the effort wasn’t worth it. My short arms and fingers don’t make it any easier. Neither does being rotund. I can’t do insertion while sitting on the toilet. I have to stand with a foot up on the toilet to open myself enough that I can reach to get the thing in. Maybe if I was sixty pounds lighter it would be easier. That’s not happening any time soon.
The idea is to push it into yourself fast enough to get the rim of the cup past the pelvic bone before it pops open. Once you’ve got that part in, you can push from the bottom to get it deeper inside. Regardless how I hold the cup, I have my first finger, my middle finger, and my thumb going into my vagina all at once. They start at the top of the fold, pinching tight to keep it closed, then walk down the length of the cup while pushing it into my vagina. I end up with my index and middle fingers performing the final pushes. I am getting better at it, six months later, but it’s always something of an adventure.
I can’t grip the cup any lower than the rim because it pops open in my hand. I can’t do it with my hand wet because it slides out of my fingers and pops open. It really got to be a pain in the ass.
Some manufacturer instructions will say to feel inside to be sure it has completely opened. Well, I have short fingers. I can barely get them in far enough to feel my pelvic bone. There’s no way they are going to make it another two and a half inches in to feel that the rim is fully open. Marvel’s “Mr. Fantastic”, able to magically stretch whenever I want, I am not. I have to go on faith that the cup’s desire to be round will win out over my vagina’s need to crush anything that goes into it.
When it came to my heaviest days, I quickly decided to leave off the cup during the night. The last thing I wanted to do at 2am, 4am, and 6am was wrestle with this bloody mess, have to clean the cup with soap and water in the sink every time, then put it back in again. I went back to tampons for overnight. I don’t even need to open my eyes to pull one out and put another in. I can do that in a couple minutes, versus the five minute minimum for dealing with the cup.
“Makes a light seal” the instruction book says. Light seal. That’s cute.
You’ve gotten the thing into you. You’ve worn it for several hours. You’ve gone to the toilet a couple times and felt it poking out while you’re sitting there. Now it’s been six or eight hours, you’re curious how much muck is actually inside it. Time to take the thing out.
There’s this handy little stick of silicone poking out. You’d think that’s how you remove it, right? Nope. I have no idea what that thing is actually there for. It’s not like the cup can “get lost” up there. It comes down toward the vaginal opening all by itself when you sit on the toilet. But no. You’re not supposed to grab hold and pull. You need to reach farther up to the little round base and gently pinch to get a good hold, then pull it out.
Just grasping the thing is another adventure for a short-fingered, short-armed gal. I found myself needing to be something of a contortionist to reach the nub end and get hold of it. Sometimes it took several attempts to get it firmly enough to remove.
Remember that “light seal”? Yeah, what they mean to say is seriously tight vacuum seal that you may feel pop open when you pinch the bottom of the cup to pull the thing out. I don’t know how other women perceive it, but sometimes I feel a small, mild sensation of pain when the vacuum releases.
Slowly pull the cup down and out, trying to keep the thing upright so you don’t spill it if you want to see how much is there. If you don’t want to see how much is there, just tilt to empty…but remember that it will not all come pouring cleanly out. There is that slimy, sticky mucous to contend with. The blood may stick to the inside of the cup, to the rim, to everything. Plus your fingers.
I did warn you this thing is messy.
My most successful “measuring” removal, the cup was 2/3 full. Over an ounce and a half in one six hour session, and I wasn’t in my hardest time of the week. So that “average of 2 ounces for the whole cycle” thing was blown in one six hour time period. I estimate my entire flow was around 16 fluid ounces that month. Two whole cups of menstrual flow. (no wonder I crave steak)
You already know the flow also contains the lining of the uterus, which sloughs off in bits and pieces. The vagina also continues to produce the clear liquid of its own lubrication. This means there is blood in the bottom of the cup, but then a layer of clear liquid on top.
Month 3…I got sick. I had a really bad cold with sinus infection. I was tired, run down. I couldn’t bear the thought of having to deal with a menstrual cup. I didn’t have the energy to wrestle with it. I used tampons and pads through that entire cycle. The experiment reinforced the need to keep my mind on what was really practical for me, for my physical shape and condition, and the ultimate decision was to suspend the experiment that month. I skipped the next month also. I was better, but still not up to fighting with the cup.
I had decided that removal and cleaning three times a day was most practical for me. Morning when I got up, late afternoon, then before bed. This way, I would not risk it filling too much on my more manageable days, and could also balance the number of hours the mess remained in the cup.
I thought about using a glove to reduce the mess. However, if I’m throwing a latex glove out every time I have to take my cup out, that negates the whole “better for the environment” thing.
It does have an odor when left in for longer stretches of time, another reason to remove every 6 to 8 hours rather than 12. I don’t care for the thought of the blood in there sloshing around for that long.
Another interesting tidbit – when the cup sits lower (like when you’re on the toilet), it may make urination a bit more difficult. There is a product now, used like a tampon, that stops accidental leakage of urine. The cup can do the same thing, pressing in just the right spots to cause slow, dribbly urination. Pushing the cup deeper sometimes alleviates that. I usually just bear down a little to force the urine through.
Also, at least once, I did have to remove the cup before a difficult bowel movement.
Now the experiment is concluded, I’ve determined that the cup is a great device for going to a party while I’m on my period. I have two of them (because I misplaced one the day before I was going to a party and had to buy another) and will use them for exactly that. I’ll use them when I’m going to be out of the house for a long time on a lighter day.
As a decrease the landfill option, it’s not going to work for me. Ever. I still have to have tampons and pads for my heaviest days. I’m not using as many regular tampons is all. Not enough to make any substantial difference to what goes to the landfill.
When it comes down to it, nights out aside, I’d rather use tampons and pads and have less hassle and far less mess to deal with. For me, they’re just not worth the effort needed.
Some people on another site were complaining about how horrible Episodes 1-3 are. How they “weren’t what I expected.”
Below is my response to them — and to everyone else who thinks they’re so horrible. No, I’ve not covered every point, but I’ve hit the highlights.
A lot of people have Episodes 1 through 3 wrong, and nearly all of them for the same reason.
Nearly every person who says they didn’t like them, at some point in all their blithering about why they were SOOOOOOOOO BAAAAD states some form of “it wasn’t what I expected.”
They went to the theater expecting to see the story they WANTED to see rather than going as a blank slate and letting George tell them the story he had to tell. the story he’d been wanting to tell for thirty years.
Each movie, each character, did precisely what they needed to do. The first put the players onto the gaming board. We had to see Anakin as that small boy who was a good pilot. We had to see him as that innocent cherub — still innocent enough even though he’d known nothing but the life of a slave.
Some people have criticized Pernilla August for her stony portrayal of Shmi. Well, she had to be a stone, didn’t she? Here she is, a slave all her life, and a man falls out of the sky to tell her that he wants to take her son to be trained to be a member of the most respected (or hated, depending on which side of the lightsaber you’re on) orders in the galaxy. Is she going to be all weepy and make her son feel guilty for going? Hell no. She’s going to clench her jaw and say GO!, my most beloved son. Go and be free. Being a mother myself, I live that moment with Shmi and it brings me to tears every time, to see her hope for her son and her heartbreak in making him go.
Qui Gon — What did you think he was going to be? He had to be the dignified Jedi and teacher. He had a great deal of responsibility as it was. Now he’s got a mouthy young Queen in disguise dropped into his lap and a tag-along boy too. He’s got an entire war hanging over his head. He’s not going to be jolly old St. Nick. I loved Liam Neeson’s performance.
Ewan nailed Obi Wan. If there was one actor who had a lot to live up to, there it was. And, he never OWNED R2D2. Padme did. The droid was one of a team of droids on the ship they used to escape Naboo. And at the end of Episode 3, R2D2 was with C3PO going to serve that same Captain/Admiral/whateverthehellhewas from A New Hope. So he wasn’t being forgetful. He really never owned a droid.
Darth Maul was pretty freakin’ creepy. lol The martial arts and fighting in general were a HUGE improvement from the “running from laser fire” and bapping the lightsabers together of episodes 4-6. I sat one night and went move for move with the slow motion, showing my cousin the moves used in that fight between Obi Wan, Qui Gon and Darth Maul. Wheel barrel kicks in that Darth Maul costume, with a double ended lightsaber he had to be sure he didn’t accidentally slice through his own arm with (because WE would have noticed if the handle was incorrect and he would have sliced his own head off lol). It was fantastic to see good fighting for once.
And to see people riding the animals that had before only been models with action figures on them. lol That was terrific. The use of CGI was phenomenal. But STILL, they didn’t fix Darth Vader’s arm bouncing after he spoke in A New Hope. lol To see ships flying without the boxes around them. Have we become so jaded that we cannot be excited about these fantastic leaps in technology George was finally able to take advantage of? I was thrilled. and let us remember that this was EARLY in the CGI tech, all things considered. It’s come a long way since and we have to remember that the tech then was not the tech now. Are you going to tell Harryhausen that his clay models in Clash of the Titans are terrible compared to the claymation of Tim Burton? No. For the time, they were revolutionary. For its time, the effects in Episodes 1-3 were also revolutionary.
We’ve just become too complacent to notice because 300 was ALL CGI. And so are a shitload of other movies. (I recently saw an early screening of the Crouching Tiger sequel and one of the biggest fights at the end is ALL CGI.) You gotta let that shit go and be willing to be dazzled.
Jar Jar — I loved him. Get over it. I am using one of his lines in my Kingdom Key series when I get it going AND giving him credit. (hands up) “My give up!” Was he eye-rolling in some moments? Sure. But he also turned out to be a pivotal character (bringing the two sides together into a unified army comes to mind…that shit ain’t easy!) and one heck of a soldier once he got his act together. I wish we’d seen more of him in Episode 2 than a walk through.
Senator Palpatine. Of course we knew who he was going to become. This was our chance to see the man before the shit hit the fan. A much as we were watching how the galaxy was starting its spiral toward the Empire, we were also watching a man starting his own path to his final doom.
So the players are on the board, all of them where they needed to be for the next movie.
Some of the shit is going to hit the fan. We have our young hero Anakin well on his way to being a Jedi, frustrated that he’s being held back, at that one pivotal moment. And his mentor was called away to one assignment while he goes in the opposite direction with Padme.
Their developing love was charming. It was all the sweetness it needed to be in order to be all the more heart-wrenching when it came time for Anakin to do all those horrible things we knew he was going to do.
Finding his mother just before her death, his mentor on the other side of the galaxy, Anakin took that final step on the path toward the dark side. He let out his hate and his anger and became a mass murderer. He killed not just the male Tuskan Raiders. He killed the women and the children. He killed them all. Can you not feel the power of that moment? And there we were in the theater, helpless to stop him. Forced to watch as he took that one step that would forever dominate his destiny. If Obi Wan had been there, it would have been very different. Are we so cynical that the meaning of that moment escapes us? What, exactly, WERE you expecting? He’d wake up one day and be Darth Vader?
It was as it needed to be. And Padme was most certainly NOT equipped to council him. She wasn’t capable of helping him in the least. I think she didn’t quite comprehend the magnitude of what he’d done.
Samuel Jackson’s purple lightsaber. THANK YOU THANK YOU, SAM! People can make up all the reasons they want why some are purple. It’s purple because Samuel Jackson wanted to be able to see where he was in that vast fight sequence! And it was brilliant of him. Purple is my color, btw.
Yoda with the Padawans, when Obi Wan had lost a planet. That was charming. It was cute as hell. And we needed to be reminded that there were younglings in that temple. It wasn’t just a bunch of old men in robes congratulating themselves on their self-control and neutrality.
Finding the clones, bringing them to be the army of the republic — That had to happen. And in that scene at the end was the first crescendo of the Empire, foreshadowing that final turn that would happen in the third movie. How did you think the Empire was going to get an army? Why did you THINK it was called the Clone Wars?
I absolutely love all the little tidbits that get dropped along the way. A name here, a location there. All the shapes are there, ready to become the familiar iconic ships and buildings we knew from episodes 4-6.
Yoda FIGHTING!!! Bad-ass Yoda, jumping, flipping, generally laying waste to Count Dooku rather than a puppet sitting on a log. You weren’t thrilled to see that?
Then we get to the third movie.
Anakin conflicted as ever. He has a tremendous power within and the Jedi Council are trying to keep him from going rogue. They fail miserably, of course, because the Sith Lord they’ve not found yet is very good at blinding them. He’s good at nudging the young man. He knows which psychological buttons to hit.
That moment when Anakin got down on his knee to swear loyalty and he received the name Darth Vader…It’s not often a movie will give me chills. I felt the depths of that moment. I felt the meaning of it in my own soul.
Going to the Jedi Temple. “Your father hunted down and killed the Jedi.” And he started by marching into the Jedi Temple on Coruscant with soldiers of the “republic” and massacred his brethren. We were helpless to stop him, forced to sit there and watch him march those final steps to the dark side. Irrevocably. I was so in tears, my throat closed up and so tight it hurt. “No, Anakin. No. Please no.” Just as real a moment as any I’ve lived in my own life. A moment over two decades in the making.
One of the single most powerful cinematic moments in movie history. One of the moments we’d been waiting how long to see? But you have to get over your own expectations in order to see it for what it is.
Not to mention the other iconic moments. Yoda knew Chewbacca, dude! The moment 3PO and R2 first met was hilarious. That 3PO’s mind was erased but R2 still knew everything that had happened. And, I must say, R2 KICKED ASS! He can FLY, dude! Cursing a blue streak the entire way, of course. I’ll take that foul-mouthed little droid any day. lol
Hayden was given one of the most hyped-up roles ever. He didn’t give us the Anakin we wanted. He gave us HIS Anakin. Obi Wan had a tiger by the tail and he knew it. I thought Hayden played the character very well, from young Jedi becoming a man, dealing with all these external forces and manipulations he was powerless against. Palpatine was a master manipulator, from start to finish. Calculating. Patient. Knowing his own power and knowing when to let things happen.
Then the final fight between brothers. We knew they had to fight. We knew what had to happen to Anakin for him to become the heavy machine mouth breather we all knew from episodes 4-6. But seeing it with our own eyes…it was horrific. And in the end, Obi Wan could not bring himself to kill his brother.
The first time we heard that heavy breath at the end of the movie…again, chills. That was ominous — and we KNEW what Darth Vader was already. We knew how he died but still it was enough to make me go EEP.
The evil we already knew was at last born.
I love these movies. Every single one of them. Every single minute of each and every one of them. They were brilliant.
But in order to see it for yourself, you have to get past the “not what I expected” brain block.
See the story that’s there, the story George had to tell, rather than wishing you’d gotten the story you wanted.
Not one person who says it wasn’t what they expected has ever been able to tell me what they DID expect. Because they’re not qualified to write that story in the first place. Instead of harping on it anytime the topic comes up, how about keeping it to yourself JUST ONCE and letting those of us who actually enjoy the movie do some talking. The way some people carry on, it makes those of us who really do like the movies feel like we’re not allowed to enjoy them.
It’s why I don’t get together a party to go see them when new ones come out. I can’t enjoy it with people complaining all the way through.
Between the release of Return of the Jedi and Phantom Menace, they did a terrible thing.
They grew up and lost that sense of wonder and awe that used to exist around these movies.
That?…is a crying shame.
So it comes around again.
There’s this list of submissive bill of rights that is being posted again, with dominants urged to re-post it so subs will know where they stand. In doing so, they are encouraging people to commit a copyright violation. Not one of them has permission from the actual author to post it. No one even knows who the original author is anymore.
Problem is that not a one of them is a universal right. Every single thing in the list is up to the two people IN the relationship to decide and determine.
It’s not anyone’s place to write up a universal diktat and say it applies to everyone. Worse still, they copy/paste it from somewhere else without even attempting to personalize it to themselves and how they conduct their own relationships.
Some things in the list very obviously turn the dynamic into a submissive led relationship. That doesn’t work for those who view the dom as the leader and the sub as the follower, those for whom the sub is very much NOT in control.
Some dominants already have their way of doing things and the sub is expected to adjust him/herself fit into that paradigm. In this, the sub has whatever rights the dom wants them to have and does not have whatever rights the dom has decided not to observe.
If the sub isn’t okay with that, he/she shouldn’t get into a relationship with that dom.
It’s not appropriate to say BAD DOM!!! when a dom does things their own way and not according to some presumptuous list written by another person they’ve never even heard of.
Choosing for ourselves how we (meaning doms and subs alike) will or will not do things within our own relationships is our right.
So here is that list, points from it italicized. My responses are in bold.
1. Every submissive has the right to have their body, intellect, and emotions protected by their Dominant.
So the dominant is never to tell the sub what they don’t want to hear?
Is never to give bad news for fear of hurting their feelings?
That isn’t at all reasonable.
2. Every submissive has the right to choose the Dominant whom they serve…
I hope the dom has a say in it too. I’ve had a couple guys tell me they’ll be my submissive without even asking my input on the matter…or meeting me. lol One said “Make me your slave”, literally gave me an order instead of asking if I’d be interested.
I don’t operate from a position of the submissive running the show. Not as the submissive in my marriage and not as the dominant playing with others in the local scene.
…and take their leave without being subjected to physical, mental, or emotional abuse.
They may have that right. It’s almost never observed, however. That part is on the dom. Do the words on the page match how the dom actually behaves when the end comes?
3. Every submissive has the right to be cared for, disciplined appropriately, and allowed to feel pride in their submission.
Feel proud for bending over to get their ass spanked? Or feel proud to stand there and take a flogging? Feel proud to make a phone call that will prolong a woman’s life, against her own better judgment?
The right to be disciplined…the submissive has the RIGHT to be disciplined.
That reads as ridiculous, you know.
The submissive has the right to be disciplined. What if the dominant doesn’t really do that kind of thing? What if the dominant doesn’t use corporal punishment as a form of discipline?
What if the dom’s form of discipline for breaking rules is to release the sub outright?
Maybe the sub should find these things out before getting into the relationship, so he/she can choose NOT to be in a relationship with someone who won’t funnish them on demand.
4. Every submissive has the right to protected sex if they so wish.
So you expect that they’ll be having sex. What if the dom doesn’t have sex with his/her submissives? Does the sub then have a right to demand sex even when the dominant doesn’t do that in the first place?
I think the sex thing should be discussed before the two people get into the relationship.
5. Every submissive has the right to privacy if they so wish. No submissive may be blackmailed, publicly humiliated, or physically coerced into service without their expressed desire to be so.
The two halves of those sentences have nothing to do with one another.
The right to privacy is a separate issue entirely from blackmail and public humiliation (and this sentence supposes that being humiliated in private is okay, when a large number of dynamics don’t include humiliation in the first place). Privacy has nothing to do with being coerced into service.
The submissive has the right to privacy if the dom agrees they do. If the dom doesn’t give his/her sub that right, then I guess the sub better leave the relationship.
Another thing to learn about BEFORE entering into the dynamic.
6. Every submissive has the right to defend themselves from physical, sexual, and emotional abuse.
Again, this depends on the nature of the relationship.
I know a lot of people who like to be punched, smacked in the face. I personally adore being forcefully taken by my dom and told to shut up and take it. It’s HAWT.
Once more, this is that “talk about it beforehand” things. Talk about it constantly, continually. What was a no-go six months ago might be a yes now. What was a yes six months ago might be a no way man now.
We don’t talk about these things one time and that’s it forever. They need to be revisited frequently.
7. Every submissive has the right to consent or not to consent to sexual activities.
Again, depends on the nature of the relationship.
One can be the submissive in a cnc relationship without being slave. If in a cnc relationship, then they do not necessarily get asked “hey, wanna fuck” before the fucking happens. They might get bent over the counter in the kitchen and fucked in the middle of dinner preparations. That’s what makes it HAWT.
8. Every submissive has the right to seek refuge, counsel, and advice from other subs and Dominants without the expectation of sex, money, or any other service in return.
If a sub needs to “seek refuge” from their own dom, it’s time to get out of that relationship.
9. Every submissive has the right to a physically and emotionally available circle of friends.
And if they don’t WANT a circle of such friends?
The dom may very well control access to friends and family. If the sub agrees to that arrangement, then he/she does not have the right.
What if the current circle of friends is toxic and possessive and disapproving and replacements aren’t readily available? You know, because we don’t go to Payless and try on people for friends like we try on shoes.
10. Every submissive has the right to protect their own possessions and finances against intercession, theft, and non-consensual acquisition.
So never marry your dom in a communal property state.
And hide the pop tarts so the dom doesn’t steal them.
Every single thing in this is entirely subjective to the dynamic they have with their partner but reads like you expect this list to be the same for every person in the world.
Every single thing on this list is to be decided between the people in the relationship, not issued wholesale in a diktat.
Try this instead:
Insert the words “with me” into every line so that you are referring to yourself as the dominant.
1. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to have their body, intellect, and emotions protected by me.
See what I did there? You are speaking solely of yourself and people in a relationship with you and not applying it to EVERY submissive and dominant in the world.
It’s that simple.
2. Every submissive who wants a relationship with me has the right to choose me, rather than being chosen by me, and to discontinue that service and take their leave without being subjected to physical, mental, or emotional abuse.
3. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to be cared for, disciplined appropriately, and allowed to feel pride in their submission.
4. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to protected sex if they so wish.
5. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to privacy if they so wish. No submissive may be blackmailed, publicly humiliated, or physically coerced into service without their expressed desire to be so.
6. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to defend themselves from physical, sexual, and emotional abuse.
7. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to consent or not to consent to sexual activities.
8. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to seek refuge, counsel, and advice from other subs and Dominants.
This other part: without the expectation of sex, money, or any other service in return. Unfortunately, you can’t tell other dominants whether or not they should expect to have sex with the person asking their advice. you don’t have that kind of power.
9. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to a physically and emotionally available circle of friends.
10. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to protect their own possessions and finances against intercession, theft, and non-consensual acquisition.
See how that works?
Speak for yourself.
You’re not qualified to speak for every submissive and every dom everywhere
My own version when I am talking with someone who wants to be my service sub or slave:
1. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to hear the truth, even when it’s painful. I will be honest and forthright and expect the same in return.
See what I did there? I’m speaking solely of my relationship with my submissive. I should point out, however, that I am forthright and honest with everyone. It’s one of the reasons I’m so hated. I don’t coddle people or tell them what they want to hear. I tell them what they need to know, especially when no one else is saying it. Hence this OP/ED piece.
2. Every submissive who wants a relationship with me has the right to approach me to open dialogue about becoming my service sub or slave. A formal relationship will be a mutually agreed upon arrangement.
The sub/slave has the right to discontinue that service (request release) and take their leave at any time. I will not in any way try to stop you or talk you out of it. There’s the door. Bye.
3. Every submissive in a relationship with me has to take care of themselves. I’m not your mommy. Suck it up and be the adult you supposedly are.
If I have to discipline you, you’re not the sub/slave for me. I prefer people who know how to follow instructions and obey.
4. Every submissive in a relationship with me has to know that there will not be any sex.
5a. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to privacy if they so wish. I don’t want your passwords. I’m not going to read your emails.
5b. No submissive will be blackmailed or physically coerced into service. Period. I’m not interested in any of that. If you don’t want to be there and serve, there’s the door.
5c. Public humiliation — is too broad a topic to be decisively covered here. Some feel being nude around others is humiliating. Others think being called fat or worthless is humiliating. This is entirely dependent upon the submissive’s personal psychology and cannot be laid out as a blanket clause.
6. No submissive in a relationship with me will be subjected to physical, sexual, or emotional abuse. If you want a spanking or a whipping, that’s not abuse because you will have to ask me nicely in order to get it. I, however, have the right to say no/later/maybe if I don’t feel like doing it at that moment.
7. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to consent or not to consent to activities…until they decide they no longer want to have the option of consent. This can happen as soon as five minutes into a play session. Or never.
8. Every submissive in a relationship with me can talk to whomever they want. They do not, however, have the right to expect me to abide by whatever advice they are given.
I keep my own counsel.
9. See #8.
10. Every submissive in a relationship with me has the right to their own possessions and finances against intercession, theft, and non-consensual acquisition. I’m not interested in owning all your stuff. I don’t want an ATM or a paypig. I won’t ask you to buy all the things, or even a bottle of water for me.
See how simple that was? I turned each of those diktats into something that applies to how I personally want to conduct my relationships and how I conduct myself.
We should all do that.